Even though these are a bit depressing, I had to vent to someone. Even if it's technically no one, right? Enjoy.
http://youtu.be/F7RbBB-lT5o
http://youtu.be/4Emqsn_hu40
Sorry to be so depressing...
We accept the love we think we deserve, right? I think I deserve him. He's all I can think about. Honestly, I did so good at not texting him, just to end up doing it. I miss him, and as much as he says it won't work, I was sure it would. I just wish I could tell him that. But I don't want to seem all desperate and stuff. I want -- no, need -- him to know how much I love and miss him. I don't want to have to answer more questions than I already have to. I'm tired of my mom coming to check on me all the time. I just want the life I used to have. I miss that. Why did Sophomore year have to end. That year was the best, and I'd give anything to get back there.
I miss you, Ryan.
